FML

today,
i feel empty,
i don't know why,
i feel like there is nothing inside me anymore,
no reason to go on,
i'm not going to go kill myself or anything,
but i seriously see no point.
i mean, we all end up dieing anyways, right?
life sucks, and then you die. quoted from Breaking Dawn, Book 2.
but seriously, isn't that true?
i believe in the saying, "God doesn't give us anything that we can't handle"
but how the hell are we supposed to get through it?
he doesn't give us that answer.
we are supposed to find a way out of it.
but HOW?
if it just keeps going and going and going,
its never, ever, going to stop.
and i have been trying too,
way too hard,
i've lost for trying.
my life fucking sucks.
i've lost friends, i've lost everyone, heck, i've even lost myself.
i feel no more emotion anymore,
and it's like my body is just there,
but i'm not.
i don't think i was meant to be put on this earth,
but then again, why am i here ?
so many questions, NONE of them answered.
my life is a fairytale, with no happy ending,
no, its not even a fairytale, its a nightmare,
from the moment i was born, all it has been is hell.
there have been some points where i did believe i could escape,
but then i got stuck,
and sucked back into my nightmare.
i'm going to say this, not because i'm overly obsessed or ANYTHING,
but i can relate to Isabella Swan right now,
i don't fit in, in the human world,
i have no special talents,
maybe i was born to be something extraordinary,
vampires and werewolves probably don't exist, but who knows,
maybe there IS something more for me,
beyond this life,
and i will find it someday,
but for now,
i'm still living in my nightmare, my hell.