One More Time ( 8 )

wow.

k so i'm seriously BORED.

i bet all of my followers are getting sick of all my updates, and on twitter too.

well there's nothing i can do about it.

but i'm seriously bored out of my frickin' MIND.

there's only so much of the internet and fictional characters that one can take,

and i think i have reached my limit.

summer is supposed to be fun.

a season of relaxation, freedom, hanging out, going to parties, going swimming, vacationing, and doing stuff with friends.

have i done any of that? no.

because i'm stuck at home, doing nothing.

sleeping in 'til 11:30 everyday, just wasting my life away.

i need something to do.

i feel so distant from people.

i barely talk to anyone anymore.

i don't even know.

blaaah.

i wrote a 'song' .

kay well basically it was feelings, that turned into a song, that turned into a poem, that turned into feelings, and then back into a song.

i wrote it, because i could.

i'll post it.

and it sucks, and the reason why is posted up there. ^^

it's written (well some parts are) to the melody of "I Gotta Go My Own Way" HSM2 - When Gabriella is leaving Troy.

kaay, here it goes :

I will refuse to let my heart sink so low, this time.

I have gone through, life's endless possibilities.

And somehow, they all lead back to you.

It seems that you are always there, to catch me when I fall.

But I won't fall into your games, right now.

I've learned how to forget and just move on.

They say I can never do it, it's just impossible.

I'm a weak soul and always chasing after you,

Well not this time.

I will prove them wrong.

I can't seem to forget about you,

You're clouding up my mind.

All these memories, all those good times.

I've got to let you go,

But whenever I try, you find a way back.

I've tried to move on, but I guess its time to just accept,

That you are here for a reason, in my life, but I don't know why. (no, i don't know why)

yeaaa, like i said it was kind of stupid.

btw, if you're STILL reading this, i love you. <3

i don't know.

i guess i'm just lonely.

and that loneliness is creeping up on me.

i've finished two books in two friggen days.

oh well. and they weren't THAT short either.

i'm going to watch Pirates Of The Caribbean now.

hope you liked my song,

i honestly don't care if you did or didn't.

my feelings, my thoughts, not yours.

but let me know, kaaaaay?

oh and some people have changed, and now i hate them even more.

some new people too, and they haven't noticed.

i need a best friend.

someone i can be myself with.

i can act crazy with.

someone not over the computer.

i can hang out with on a daily basis.

i had one of these, but i made a stupid choice, and told her it was over.

my fault. it always is.

now the consequences are on me.

and i'm lonely.

whatever.

who cares right?

i like the loneliness.

i can be myself, by myself.

fuck my life.

yuuupp.

peace out.

-nicole monica teixeira .

BREAK DOWN.

just took a quiz, two hours after posting this, results:

They are born between 21st June - 23rd July

You're a real charmer but you don't get swept along by the first person who shows an interest in you. You need time to be sure of your feelings and you don't get involved lightly. But when you wake up one day telling yourself you want and love a certain person, your life takes on a whole different meaning. You cover them with kisses and can come across as a bit possessive. No-one touches the one you love! As for your loyalty, it's exemplary. Out of all the people you have encountered throughout your life, you will want to be loved-up in the arms of a one of these kinds of people...and stay there. You two form a wonderful alliance together. From the moment your two meet, a calm climate, full of love and serenity, will be born. You will feel good in their company, you have more things in common than differences. Like you, they love children and family. Alongside them, you will feel like you're in a cocoon, without ever becoming bored. And you have one thing on your mind: building a happy, comfortable and solid nest with them!

but no, other people have birthdays in between then. it can be ANYONE in the world, but why why this time. why in a quiz asking "Who is your lifetime match?" i can meet someone along the way in my life who has a birthdate in between these two dates.

besides quizzes aren't always accurate, right? please tell me so.

but its just too ironic.

help.