A Little Bit Of Monica In My Life ( 8 )

here's another random song, that randomly came in my head, well it wasn't a song, more like thoughts, and i had to write them down, so whatevs.

here it goes :

Let's go to Paris and dine on the Eiffel.

Let's go to London and meet the Queen.

Let's go to Rome and dance in the Coliseum.

Let's go to Athens and sing to the gods.

Baby, anywhere is the same with you by my side.

I can't take a day without you here.

When you leave, I'm empty.

You fill my heart, that empty spot in me

You complete me.

When I walk into the room and see you,

You're all I see, everything else disappears, and I can't help but smile.

Because I know you're mine.

GAAAAAAYY AND CORNY.

whatevs just thought i should share that with you.

OMG .

saw Transformers 2 again today.

AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING.

i have found myself two new cars, that cost over 20K . . . meh. they're TOTALLY worth it.

i think. AND THEY COME OUT WHEN I TURN 16.

yaaaaaayz.

kay i'm going to go.

hope you enjoyed my 'song' if you could call it that..

peace out .

-nicole monica teixeira .

One More Time ( 8 )

wow.

k so i'm seriously BORED.

i bet all of my followers are getting sick of all my updates, and on twitter too.

well there's nothing i can do about it.

but i'm seriously bored out of my frickin' MIND.

there's only so much of the internet and fictional characters that one can take,

and i think i have reached my limit.

summer is supposed to be fun.

a season of relaxation, freedom, hanging out, going to parties, going swimming, vacationing, and doing stuff with friends.

have i done any of that? no.

because i'm stuck at home, doing nothing.

sleeping in 'til 11:30 everyday, just wasting my life away.

i need something to do.

i feel so distant from people.

i barely talk to anyone anymore.

i don't even know.

blaaah.

i wrote a 'song' .

kay well basically it was feelings, that turned into a song, that turned into a poem, that turned into feelings, and then back into a song.

i wrote it, because i could.

i'll post it.

and it sucks, and the reason why is posted up there. ^^

it's written (well some parts are) to the melody of "I Gotta Go My Own Way" HSM2 - When Gabriella is leaving Troy.

kaay, here it goes :

I will refuse to let my heart sink so low, this time.

I have gone through, life's endless possibilities.

And somehow, they all lead back to you.

It seems that you are always there, to catch me when I fall.

But I won't fall into your games, right now.

I've learned how to forget and just move on.

They say I can never do it, it's just impossible.

I'm a weak soul and always chasing after you,

Well not this time.

I will prove them wrong.

I can't seem to forget about you,

You're clouding up my mind.

All these memories, all those good times.

I've got to let you go,

But whenever I try, you find a way back.

I've tried to move on, but I guess its time to just accept,

That you are here for a reason, in my life, but I don't know why. (no, i don't know why)

yeaaa, like i said it was kind of stupid.

btw, if you're STILL reading this, i love you. <3

i don't know.

i guess i'm just lonely.

and that loneliness is creeping up on me.

i've finished two books in two friggen days.

oh well. and they weren't THAT short either.

i'm going to watch Pirates Of The Caribbean now.

hope you liked my song,

i honestly don't care if you did or didn't.

my feelings, my thoughts, not yours.

but let me know, kaaaaay?

oh and some people have changed, and now i hate them even more.

some new people too, and they haven't noticed.

i need a best friend.

someone i can be myself with.

i can act crazy with.

someone not over the computer.

i can hang out with on a daily basis.

i had one of these, but i made a stupid choice, and told her it was over.

my fault. it always is.

now the consequences are on me.

and i'm lonely.

whatever.

who cares right?

i like the loneliness.

i can be myself, by myself.

fuck my life.

yuuupp.

peace out.

-nicole monica teixeira .

BREAK DOWN.

just took a quiz, two hours after posting this, results:

They are born between 21st June - 23rd July

You're a real charmer but you don't get swept along by the first person who shows an interest in you. You need time to be sure of your feelings and you don't get involved lightly. But when you wake up one day telling yourself you want and love a certain person, your life takes on a whole different meaning. You cover them with kisses and can come across as a bit possessive. No-one touches the one you love! As for your loyalty, it's exemplary. Out of all the people you have encountered throughout your life, you will want to be loved-up in the arms of a one of these kinds of people...and stay there. You two form a wonderful alliance together. From the moment your two meet, a calm climate, full of love and serenity, will be born. You will feel good in their company, you have more things in common than differences. Like you, they love children and family. Alongside them, you will feel like you're in a cocoon, without ever becoming bored. And you have one thing on your mind: building a happy, comfortable and solid nest with them!

but no, other people have birthdays in between then. it can be ANYONE in the world, but why why this time. why in a quiz asking "Who is your lifetime match?" i can meet someone along the way in my life who has a birthdate in between these two dates.

besides quizzes aren't always accurate, right? please tell me so.

but its just too ironic.

help.

#69

What am I doing right now?
I'll answer this question honestly.

I'm doing nothing, like a loner.
This was supposed to be an amazing summer,
But here I sit reading books and honestly, I haven't talked to any one of my friends since the last day of school.

Yup, this summer is going great.


but atleast the characters in my books are keeping me company.
I love Sinclair Youngblood Powers <3

fictional / online people are just better.

-nicole

SIERRA SIERRA SIERRA. lmfao.

Haii derr.,
i feel so special that you dedicated a WHOLE blog to me. lmfaolmfao.
i'm bored too. -_-
rofl, my summer has been suck-ish.
but y'know it hasn't even been a week yet. xD
awweee. :(
i haven't been swimming in so long.

DUDE, WE HAVE TO DO SOME MAJOR CHILLAGE.
like i'm bored out of my friggen MIND.

i lava the rain. <3

hahaha, kaaay, i'll bring your superstar game back soontimes.


i don't know why i'm replying to you in a blog, when i can do it over facebook, but it seems so much cooler this way.
lmfao.


LOVE YOU GIRL SCOUT.


-nehcoal

ps. don't ask why this whole blog is in different colours.

just because it's you, and i love youuuu. xD

"Read A Fucking Book For Once"

People change, and sometimes it just sucks.

The Cusp of Prophecy – Sagittarius/Capricorn Cusp December 19-25

You are an unusual individual, you may want to have fun, but are too serious to do so. You have highly developed faculties of intuition and sensation. You have mastered the art of silence and do not need speech to get your point across. You leave little doubt to how you are feeling. You do not expect to be liked by other people although you often are. You are independent and do not need the approval of others and that gives you a power and freedom that others lack. You only let a select few into your circle. You have a deep, passionate nature and highly sexual orientation that bind others to you magnetically. You have a great need to be alone. Strengths: Psychic – Inscrutable – Intense Weaknesses: Frustrated – Antisocial – Oppressive

like what the fuck is this? describes me COMPLETELY.

which is weird.

i have a love / hate relationship with my zodiac sign, because it often describes me PERFECTLY.

which is weird.

-- peace.

Revenge Of The Fallen

haaaaii der.

lmfao.

kaaay, so today is Saturday June 27, 2009 and this is how my day went.

aha.

kaaay, well i woke up to my madre screaming at me, i have to say that was the best wake up call i've ever gotten . . . NOT.

i don't even know why she was yelling at me, but it ruined my morning,

sooo yea.

anyways, i went downstairs, ate breakfast, looked at the flyers,

AND THERE WAS NO BEST BUY FLYERS . . AGAIN. or future shop.

made my day even worse. . . ah.

so i finished cleaning my room, which looks totally re-done.

and i love it <3

and then i went to do my chores, i finished those,

then madre came home from grocery shopping, yelled again, whatevs. and yeaa.

i helped put away the food and shiz, then played Wii for like 10 minutes. x)

ahaha, then when i was done, me, madre, et ethan went to the movies to go see

TRANSFORMERS 2 : REVENGE OF THE FALLEN.

HOLY SHIT. BEST MOVIE OF FRIGGEN LIFEEEE.

like i can't even explain how amazing it was.

action from beginnning to start,

i'm not going to ruin anything.

but i'm going back on tuesday to see it.

lmfao, its worth holding your bladder for, let me tell you that.

kk, so at the end of the movie, i went to the washroom, because i had to go REALLY bad,

then as i was leaving the theatre,

lmfaolmfaolmfao,

i don't even wanna say it here, because its just so ironic and WEIRD.

but ahahaahah, lets just say i saw this guy, yup, THIS GUY,

and and and we made eye contact,

and it was not awkward at all .

it was actually kind of re-assuring and peaceful. . . and i don't even know.

lmfao, but he was with his friend, so whatevs.

then then when i was actually walking out of the theatre, like the building, he was standing there by the telephone thingers,

lmfao, i didn't look at him that time,

but i felt someone staring at me. .

and yea, it was weird.

but it was nice? . . . sure let's use that word.

HAHAHAH. fuuuun times.

movies on saturdays complete my life.

DID I HAPPEN TO MENTION THAT THE MOVIE IS LIKE 3 FACKIN HOURS.

yeaaa. but TOTALLY WORTH IT.

SEE IT. NOW.

+ megan fox is REALLY pretty.

i'd change sides for her. xD

lmfao.

anyways, i'm off to watch Superbad.

l8ter sk8ters.

- nickel.

Imma Be ( 8 )

I want to live on the moon, it seems peaceful up there.
Nothing wrong with that.
Living in space would be my dream come true.
I would die happy up there.
I would be away from all of the problems down on earth, and all of the people.
But I could still look down on the planet, and remember my life there.
The good times and the bad.
But the moon wouldn't be so bad.
I'd probably have to bring someone up there to keep me company,
But only if they wanted to.
There would be endless explorations on the moon, and discoveries.
It would be beautiful.
I could see the stars more clearer than ever because there would be no streetlights, damn I hate those things.
They ruin your view of the sky, just so you know.
I guess life would just be... better.

It's been a year. and what was said has been erased from our memories.
We got a fresh new start, new surroundings.
But something happened, you changed.
but what matters, is that you were always true to me.

There's No Reason For Life Anymore

Fml.
Everything is back to the fucking way it was last year.
I can't handle anything anymore.
This time it's just fucking worse, life is ruined, promises are broken,
fuck everything.
I hate it.

A Day To Remember Forever.

RIP MICHAEL JACKSON && FARRAH FAWCETT.
this is a day of death.
these two people were amazing.
and will always be remembered.
and to all the other people who have had family members or friends taken from them,
My condolences go out to you and your families.

Its also storming right now,
And I'd rather be sitting outside in this storm,
Then hearing whats going on right now.

I need an escape.

Have Faith, Restart ( 8 )

I need a best friend.

Goodbye My Hopeless Dream ( 8 )

blaaaah.

kaaay soo, i think i missed a day again on blogging?

well , yesterday, i think, tuesday? was my science exam, 'twas eaaasy. i finished at the hour mark. . and left school to go get althea's book, and change, and booked it back to school. . yeaa.
i gave it to her. then me, crystal, althea, samuel, kim went to starbucks, and then althea and kim left with people, so it was just me, crystal and samuel, we chilled for a while, then left, and walked around the plaza, then we went to the GO station, and waited for their bus, i made peace with someone, thank god.
then everyone left, because their buses came, and i walked home in the boiling hot sun. THANKS GUYS. xD
anyways, i got home, and then madre was all like "LETS GO OUT!" i was like suuure.
so we went out to the grocery store, and LCBO, and the garden centre, home depot. LOTS AND LOTS OF WALKING. -_________- but 'twas fuun.
then we got home, and went to the park, like i was barely home yesterday.
THEN WE WENT TO BLOCKBUSTER.
i swear the people there know us by name, we're there EVERYDAY. xD
i watched inkheart, it was VER VER confusing, but it was okaaaaay. 3/5 stars. ;)
then i watched confession of a shopaholic, CUTEE MOVIE. but i only give it 3.5/5 stars. it was okaaay. xD
then i watched twister. kay, well like 5 minutes.
i watched Wendy Wu on demand. so it was pretty cool.
but i fell asleep. xD
i woke up todaaay,
cleaned my room,
its still not clean.
i bugged madre.
went to the park,
didn't tan.
frickin hot.
yeaa, watched an hour of Zenon, because its on demand,
then got bored,
and bugged madre again.
ate dinner, TACOS <3
which reminded me of tanamakoon,
goodtimes . i miss it.

anyways, i'm going to go do something. . . yeaa.

later daaaays. :)

i always knew looking back at the tears would make me laugh. . . but i never knew that looking back at the laughs would make me cry.

Easy Come, Easy Go ( 8 )

wow, just "fixed my blog"
most of it doesn't make any sense, but
THE BEATLES = <3

. . . anyways. . yea.

Dead End Countdown ( 8 )

wooooot wooooot. :)
i'm back.
and i have nothing to saaaay.
my day was lame.
science is lame.
i have NOTHING to do this summer & i'm not going to summer school.
i need a job, so i can get a macbook and a wonderland seasons pass. xD
i have to make a moral decision to take down my barbie's or not.
examination tomorrow, then chilling with madre. (H)

i gave up on studying, i'll just wing it. . . ish. xD
lmfao,

i'm going to go.
peaaaaaceeee.

Now My Feet Won't Touch The Ground ( 8 )

. . . studying, worrying, science is stupid. . .
yeaa.

peace outtt.

be back later to blog about day.
unless i give up on studying,then i'll be back in five. .

yeaa.. . i'll be back in five minutes. ;)

- nehcoal

Here Comes The Sun ( 8 )

i love that song <3

anyways, todaaay is father's todaaaay,
we went to toronto to a famjam.
major chillaaaaagee.
'twas fun.
i don't feel like explaining anything though, so i won't. xD
wasn't that important, ANYWAYS,
WE WEERE IN TORONTO AND DIDN'T GO TO MUCH AT ALL.
but my mom promised that i could go to the MMVAs NEXT YEAR,
SO ITS ALL GOOD.
thats why i'm not bummed.

i'll blog later, because i have nothing to say.
peace out.

Please Don't Leave Me ( 8 )

never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about.

I used to despise these words, HATED THEM, wanted to punch everyone who said it,
Break anything that read it,
ANYTHING.
then I realized,
there must be a reason for you and for me.
God has something planned & it's there.
now I just have to wait.

or maybe I'm just being stupid, but right at this moment,
All I can think about is back to a year ago,
I felt the same emotions .
but now things are better, easier.
I just hope they last that way.
I hope our friendship builds over time,
I know I can trust you with ANYTHING.
I just hope you feel the same way about me.

<3
-nicole.

When Love Takes Over ( 8 )

you tore my heart up into two, but guess what? i'll always love you. <3 always. (:

woooooow, so the last time i blogged, was the end of school. so here's what i've been doing for the past two or three days.

thursday :
went to write my english exaaaam, peace of cake, hahaa, really. btw, i have no feeling toward you anymore, hahaha thank god. that would have been a pain. anyways, after the examination i went to sierra's house with kaisie and her, and we basically just chilled, but it was fun times. :)
then i left, picked up some kids, went home, and played Wii. good times.
apparently i have an amazing voice, and should go into a career of singing.
coolness.
so i played wii for like seven hours, instead of studying for religion exam the next daaay, oh well. :)
then went to ethan's soccer game, was pretty cold, but 'twas chill.
they lost, obvs. xD
then i went home played wii, and slept.

fridaaaaay: the day of fries. . . not really. xD

lmfaaaaoo, so i woke up at 8:02, and considered just ditching my religion exaaam, but naah, i went looking like crap, but i went.
i was late, and kris gave me a ride to school, but i went. xD
so i got there, late. lmfao,
andandand i wrote it, fucking easy too.
religion was a cake walk,
i finished, said goodbye, went home and cleaned my room, apologized to madre, got my pants hemmed, and then went to Crystal's house for the daaaay.
I LOVE THIS CHICKS HOUSE. ITS HUGE AND AMAZING. AND I LOVED IT.
lmfao, fun times there.
and i looooove Crystal <3 (: OMG AND COREY <--- CUTEST KID ALIVE.
soooooo after that i went out to eat with the famille, good times. . ish.
got home and i slept.

todaaaay = saturday : the day of sitting on days. . . that made NO sense. whatevs.

this how my day went:
woke up,
stayed in bed for an hour,
went to eat cereal,
went back to bed for two hours,
got yelled at,
got out of bed to eat more cereal,
took a shower,
ate 3 waffles, 2 hashbrowns, and a banana,
did my chores while jamming to music,
went to Wild Wing = eating more.
got home, blogging, now i'm starvingg again..

all in all, a pretty epic daaaaaay.

fun times, and now we are all caught up.


so i'm over him and like him but this time, i think i might be okaaaay. (:

peaaaaaceeee, off to watch FU = FIRED UP. WOOOOOOOT.

Everything's Right ( 8 )

there's going to be like a 11290893859084308590384908509438590894308 stars and hour away on sunday and i can't gooooo, because no one will go with me.

fml.
TAYLOR LAUTNER IS GOING TO BE THERE.

fuckmylife.
i can't do anything, but i have to be there for everyone else.

whatevs.

Summertime Is Finally Here ( 8 )

haaaaii derr. :)

hahaha, so i'm in an okaay mood today. :D

here's how today went.

i woke up at 5:40 and layed in bed for an hour, then wokee up and got ready, i got my hair fully straight, so that put me in a good mood. haha,
i left the house at 8:00. which is early for moi. so today was off to a good start.
we had a double period of music class today, which i thought was going to be DREADFUL.
but, i got there early. . haha, and ms. caruana asked me and daniel to go to her car, and get a whole bunch of stuff, so we did, 'twas fun times. xD
then we had our theory exam, EASY PEASY. this is why i love music, because its easy, and fun and interesting. :)
sooo, after that, we basically had two hours of freetime, people pulled out their iPods, we were running back and forth to and from the cafeteria to get food, just walking around the hallways, and some people were playing instruments, haha,
i made the stupid mistake of rescheduling my exam on monday to today afterschool, but i'll get to that later. but all in all it was a pretty chill class, and it was a fun last class. :)
soooo then was RELIGION, normally i despise religion, but today it was good times.
we played 'jeopardy' and it was fuuun,
melad yelled at me for not having answers on my review, but its okay, we're still bestfriends, hahaa.
then we watched RADIO, honestly, its like the BEST movie we've watched all year, except for A Walk To Remember, but seriously, it's amazing, and we didn't even FINISH it. D:
lunch was good times too. most people skipped all three lunches, and i got to buy my lunch today, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. :)
then came english, the only class we ACTUALLY do work in, so we did review, and and and watched some rosa parks movie. :S
whatevs.
i've totally forgotten about him. thank god. :)
soooo after school came, and i had my exam at 3:30 . .. so i was stuck at school for an hour, so i helped sierra clean out her locker, then i cleaned out MY locker, fun timeeees. lmfao, in an abandoned hallway.
and then it was only like 2:50. . . so i went to the music room to practice, but both practice rooms were taken so i had to sit out in the hallway with these two guys that had guitars and practice.
but i didn't really play, because i was too shy. :$
but i practiced the fingering. so it was all gooood.
then the two guitarists (whatevs) left me in the hallway by myself, because they had to do their exam, soooo i sat out in the hallway by myself for like half an hour. . meh. i got to practice. the school is kind of eerie when you are playing a flute in empty hallways and its echoing. xD
meh. sooooo then my BFF comes along, and me and him start talking for what felt like half an hour, i swear we have so much in common, like we NEVER can get in a fight, and me and him haven't.
he came from tutoring or whatevs. thats why he was there.
so i talked to him until his mom came.
but i had to go and take my exam, so i ditched him first. xD
ANYWAYS, i'm in the exam room, and i'm literally shaking, while i'm playing because i'm so nervous. i played For He's A Jolly Good Fellow (terribly, because i was running out of breath) and Out The Window He Must Go (excellent) and then the scales were okaaay, i needed to fix my posture like a MILLION times, but it was worth it.
the exam went SOOO well, i was proud of myself.
then i was done, at like 3:45, and i had to walk home in the rain, YES RAIN, in JUNE, JUST WRONG. xD
its SUMMER.
but anyways, i got soaked, but its okaaay, because i did my exam well, and i passed. haha,

now i am back to studying for english and religion.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :)

I Know You Want Me ( 8 )

My mom is such a motherfucking bitch, I can't fucking WAIT until I move out.
Fuck her, not literally, but FUCK.

fml.

Them Chickens Be Jackin My Style ( 8 )

1. You're a bitch, and you annoy the shit out of me.

2. Don't fucking lead people on, when clearly you're not fucking interested.

3. It's clear that we are only friends, but I think I'm okay with that. :]

4. You have become my friend over one semester, and you talk to me in a class no one even notices me. thank you (:

5. Get over yourself you aren't the center of fucking attention, we don't need to be there for you, we choose to, but you're getting on my nerves.

6. I can tell any and everything to you, I think, and I hope that you will stick through with me until the end, and I'll do the same for you. <3 (:

7. You're fucked, and number two relates to you as well.

this was fuuuun .
legit.

Time to eat my soup.

pictures of you, pictures of me remind us all of what we used to be ( 8 )

i actually hate signing onto my blogger, because i have this long ass email, and password, and i always get it wrong. loooool, oh well.

so i'm not doing any better than what my last blogs describe, but i'm trying to stay away from those thoughts.

so basically this is going to be a random blog.

sooo, i went out to dinner with sierra and her family on friday night, gts.
except she was SICK. D:
so the whole night was her complaining she was tired. xD
haha, but i still lava you sierra <3 (:

and then, i got home, changed my fbook username and went to sleep..

i have ALL FOUR EXAMS THIS SEMESTER. FML.
i haven't even started to study. . . later today i will.
but i'm scared to death.

I WANT TO GO TO THE MMVAs on SUNDAY, but i don't know if i can,
because
1. its father's day.
2. i have a music exam the next day
3. NO RIDE.

but TAYLOR LAUTNER'S GOING TO BE THERE.
fuck.

list of things i want/need in life:
- guitar (acoustic)
- piano/ keyboard
- MACBOOK
- a job.
- more books.


i finished evermore in a DAY.
soooooooooooooooo amazing.
can't wait for blue moon.

i got nightworld no.3. . . it looks kind of shitty, but i guess i have to finish the series, BUT that book isn't even the end of the series, there's another book coming out to finish it.
so basically it's all this random stuff in between.
to bore me.
its like that 300 pages in breaking dawn, of boringness.
or like that campout scene in harry potter seven.
pointless.
whatevs. gotta do what i gotta do.

which reminds me i should pay my library late fees.
from over a year agooo.

naaaaaahh.

i REALLY want a macbook, like NOOOOOOOOOOOOW.

i'm trying to jailbreak my iPod but. . i'm too scared. i'll just ask someone to do it for me.

this past week or month or so, i have been reminiscing on old memories, from like the 90s to the early 2000s. those were goodtimes, legit,
but now the world is changing.

i need a song, so i can name this post something.

found one.
you'll see, when you read the name of this blog.

if you haven't noticed, the names of my blogs have NOTHING to do with what i'm talking about in them.
like i could be all depressed and sad, and the blog title, will be all happy, its just the song i'm thinking about in my head.
my brain doesn't work the way i want it to work.

meh.
so i'm going to go naoo.

OHH, I TRIED WRITING A SONG = EPIC FAILURE.
i'll post it right now.
if any of you reading this HAVEN'T left by now. .

where black is white, and white is black,
we wouldn't have to take anything back.
we wouldn't have to change for anyone,
not here, not in that open door.

no more changing the colour of our hair just to fit in,
no more pretending, no more wannabe's,
just you and me.

we could leave it all behind, make no more sacrifices, do anything we wanna do,
cause it doesn't matter as long as i'm with you.

yeaaaaaaaaaa, like i said EPIC FAILURE.
but whatevs. you hate it, i hate it, we're kind of on the same page here. ;)

k i'm going to go now, tell me what you think of the song. . . xD
lmfao, byeee,

-nicoleeeee

I've Got A Feeling That Tonight's Gonna Be A Good Night ( 8 )

Everything I touch I break, so don't let me touch your heart.

Fuck Life.

NO ONE TELLS ME FUCKING ANYTHING ANYMORE!
I'M LIKE A FUCKING WALL!
but you know what? EVEN PEOPLE TALK TO WALLS SOMETIMES.
SO NO! I'm not even good enough to be a wall.
Seriously GO FUCK YOURSELVES, ALL OF YOU.
don't talk to me, if you have nothing nice to say or if I'm just there for you to rant on,
Because frankly I don't give two shits about any of you anymore.

Look For The Girl With The Broken Smile, Ask Her If She Wants To Stay A While ( 8 )

mkaaay, so i'm putting off music culminating and english whatever to write this. ;)

lmaaao, okay. so since i didn't blog yesterday. . idk why, i'll make up for it, by telling you about my yesterdaay.?
sooo, i woke up at like 5:21am, and i was boreed after like 30minutes so i woke up my mom and told her i was just going for a walk
so i missioned around milton for 45minutes, lmao, its REALLY quiet. and everyone stares at you, because apparently its not NORMAL to do that. psshht.
anyways, so i got back home at like 6:30, and started to get reaaady.
then school came around,
science is actually interesting now, because y'know its astronomy <3
music, same as always, i HATE my class.
religion, culminating, 'nuff said yoo.
english, we had our presentations for mockingbird, EPIC fail. but 'twas fuuun times.
hahaha, then we read out our thingers, oh yeaa, news articles foooor culminating, it was okaaay. . . some people have amazing accents. LMFAO.
can't believe i just said that.
that was all for sierra.

ANYWAYS, school ended, went home, slept, downloaded Safari 4 <3
i totally love Apple atm. and and and someone needs to buy me a MACBOOK ASAP.

okayokay, now on TODAAAAAY.
uhm, oh yea, i woke up lateee. big surprise? not really.
soo my madre let me 'skip' first period, but i didn't sleep, which is weird. whatevs.
so she drove me to school for second,
i hate hate music, with this strong passion,
but as i was walking down the hallway to music, he looked up and stared at me, and i basically melted. . .
idk why though i felt that way though. =\
ANYWAYS, music class sucks.
'nuff said.
sooo, religion culminating again, i have NO IDEA what i'm doing, legit.
but whatevs, i'll just write some random stuff.
omgomg, lunch was goodtimes.
hahaha,
anyways, anglais came around, we were dans le bibliotechque aujourd'hui.
'twas fun times. we were working on that essay for TKAM with our groups.
shahroze, tyler, and victoria. . . haha, best group. :P
i'm COVERED in sparkles.
because y'know people just randomly pull out bottles of glitter while the teacher is speaking. xD
hahaa, anyways, we have to do our whole thing over again, because we didn't do it right. WTF? jeeeeez.
oh wells.
he stared at me like a bajillion times todaaay,
he's cute.

kithinkimdone.
yupyup.
back to homework. :)

-nicoleeeeeee

Your Arms Are My Castle, Your Heart Is My Sky ( 8 )

i'm invisible, always have been, always will be.
i always am .
i'm always left out too, and when i go to school tomorrow, everyone is going to have stories to tell, and i'm just going to be that forgotten person in the room, that everyone just looks past.

She Rides Up In My Carrera ( 8 )

I hate my life.

Now Will The Real Slim Shady Please Stand Up ? ( 8 )

i hate guys.
life is such a pain.
okaaay, i don't actually hate guys, i can't blame anyone for my emotions,
but why can't it be like fairytales?
princess meets her prince charming, the man she is destined to be with .
or like :
guy likes girl, girl likes guy, guy/girl tells the other that they like them, both of them are ecstatic and live happily ever after. . .
but this isn't a fairytale, and no one is a princess.

but i don't know what you are doing to me, i want to rip my hair out. .
everytime i close my eyes i see your face.
i'm getting dressed and i think of you,
i overhear every word you say,

but i don't know you, i don't know anything about you. . .
so i can't like you,
because a stranger can't like a stranger, right?

How Could You Be So Heartless ( 8 )

wouldn't you just love to fall asleep in someone's arms, and know that you're safe?
to feel the warm of someone in your arms, or their arms wrapped around you?
to know that they are the one, and you can trust them with anything?
to share that love and compassion with one another?
to tell them any and everything, and they'll still be there for you after?
like you two are in your own personal bubble, or world, and are living the life,
like its your only escape from reality, being with this person.

yeaaa, i wish i could experience that.

i feel . . . empty today.

some people may have taken as a joke when i said "i have no one, i feel left out, i have no one to like or to like me"
they started giving me suggestions, but the truth is, i brought this upon myself.
i didn't want to take another risk in having a crush again, because of the heartbreak i went through last year. . .
now that i have actually accepted the fact that you are a jerk, and don't care about anyone but yourself, i have moved on.
but the fact is, that promise that i made to myself a year ago, to never have a crush again, is still there, within me.
now i can only like guys for like a day, it just doesn't work for me.
i want to have that risk in having a crush again, and getting jealous when i see him with some other girl, or when he doesn't pay attention to me the way i want him to, i want to cry my heart over a guy again.
this sounds stupid, to you.
but to me, its what i miss, because i don't have the capability to do that, its like i'm heartless.
but i don't want to be.
i'm trying to get it back, but there's this barrier in my brain telling me that i can't do it again,
i made stupid promises to myself, i fulfilled them .

and now. . .i'm stuck.

We're The One's Who Made You ( 8 )

I'm empty.
It's funny how mood can change so fast?
I can't do it anymore.
Everyone is yelling at me, I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
I can't get you out of my head, I don't even KNOW you, I don't want to know you, I just want to go.
I can't wait for grade ten, I'm sick of being a freshman.

I hate my life.

When Love Becomes A Lie ( 8 )

I'm pretty sure I got the lyrics wrong in the title, this is my 14 year old self reminding my older self to google those lyrics sometime soon. YOU'RE AWESOME.

woooow, I'm talking to myself, what a faaag.

soo I'm getting the new moon poster, me thinks. :P
thank gooood <3
It's hot, now that I have figured it out.
+ I downloaded the trailer, so now I have it on the ugly slow computer.

sooo, I spoke to father and he said I can either get a guitar or a new bedroom set, I seriously don't know which one to get.
I dislike decisions. . . maybe I can get both . hmmm.

I feel so distant from everyone these daays, like no one likes me anymore, and I have become one of those attention-grabbing people.
yeaa, I really don't know.

I want to write a song, but I'm afraid I'm going to fail so badly at it.

I'm sick and tired of teenies and n00bs, legit.

I'm actually doing well I'm school now, I'm colouring my science title page as I type this. ;)

I'm also 'reading' new moon.

I ate dinner todaay, 'twas good.

I'm still confused about this guuy, but y'know what? I'm just going to forget about it.

I dislike flats.

I just forgot what I was going to say.

I haven't sworn in this blog, at all. Improvement. (:

I'm listening to z103.5 <3 fave radio station.

I love Astronomy, if I don't become an actress I am most definitely going to become an astronomer. (:

I think everyone should be unique, and honest with everyone and themselves.

I think no one should favour their friends or just ONE friend, because y'know you never really think about how the other friend feels.

I think people shouldn't copying off of my work, because I already spazzed at someone todaay.

Today someone asked me "Nicole, do you want to walk to the gym with me?" I thought it was cute, but he's my best friend. xD

It's daaark.

I'm going to end this. This was a happy blog, like not one where I'm screaming, but I'm also not swearing, and I got to rant and tell you about my day a little.

lateeeer blog / bestfriend.

-nicoleeeeeeeee

You Can Be My Private Dancer (8)

Just got back from seeing Up! Suuuuch a cute movie, legit.

I'm going to punch someone in the face, because I'm pissed, seriously.

I'm sick of being happy. I hate it. I can't be happy all the time.

I hate loud, obnoxious, attention-grabbing people, like go fuck yourselves.

I want a guitar, keyboard, and a new bedroom set. yeaaa, good luck to me.

School's almost done, except I go back a week later, legit. Well atleast I have something to do.

I hate people, I hate people who say they hate posers but they're posers themselves , like get a life.

I might be getting the new moon poster & tee from hot topic.
key word : might.

The next person to tweet about twilight I'm going to spazz on, seriously it's getting annoying.

uhm, rpattz is ugly as hell.

I hate people who see movies just for the actors, I already ranted about this, whatevs.
but I quote : "He's the only reason I'm going to see New Moon"
-.-

kthnksbye.

-nicoleeeeeee

ps. my summer might be an epic fail, because some people can't keep fucking promises.

atleast I still have August to look forward to, I get to see CHRISTINE ORTON :D
bffae. <3