what the hell happened ?

wooow, i haven't been on this in a while. epic things have happened since then.
let's list a few shall we?

kso, I MET CHRISTINE ORTON! so much fun! "everybody stop! there's a dead bee in the water" lmfao "three pounds of love" hahaa. fun times! we went to Ontario Place and down by the docks in Toronto, i stayed at the Fairmont, and HOLY SHIT. is it ever fancy! haha, fun times were had (that probably made no sense) but its awesome meeting a person you've been talking to online for almost a year. haha.

err, i also went to wonderland with crystaaaaaal! so much fun! i went on BEHEMOTH ! OMG i wasn't even scared either! no.. thats a lie, i was kind of scared, but it was totally worth it because we stood in line for like a full hour. and we went on a whole bunch of rides (7), saw some people, 'twas epic. wonderland is always fuuuun. :D except for the fact that we went to sleep at 4:30? in the morning and had to wake up like 4 hours later.. which reminds me i have to text her baaack.. yea.

so what else is new?

OH YEA. i've been travelling back and forth from milton - toronto - scarborough - milton - scarborough - toronto. suuuch fun times. sleeping over at fam's house like every night, exploring new places. (:

i just got back from seeing The Ugly Truth, dude, SUCH an amazing movie! not only did they have HOT guys in it, but it was sooo cute and inappropriate, and soooo cute. haha,

i've also seen Shorts recently, it was OK. i mean, it was hilare. but i expected more, but i still recommend it! :D

i saw GI Joe too, this movie, AHIHKDFJGDLJF CHANNING TATUM IS SEX. sorry, yea, this movie was A M A Z I N G. enough said.

..yea i don't really have anything to say, just thought i should update, because i'm long over due, and i have a massive headache, and i'm kind of sucking at blogging, so i'll just shut up.

summer fail.

im bored & this is a waste of a blog.
boo.

fun fun fun fun FUN week so far, and hey! its only TUESDAY.

okay, so if you haven't noticed, summer is like FLYING by, and the weather has been way too shitty to do anything, but stay indoors. fack.
so like i've been bored out of my frickin mind.
so my madre had this week off of work. WOOOT.
yea, so we've been going place like 24/7.
so this weekend i went to toronto to go to my aunt's which is usually boring, but it was fun times, i got to watch movies, and like eat regular food. lmfao.
and we slept over there, so on sunday, we headed back home, and it was POORING. it was totally fun to drive in. haha.
but sunday we also had to cleanse the house, fml. whatevs. :P
so so yesterday, 'twas monday, and we went to this farm, in Halton Hills . i thought it was going to be boring, and HEY! it kind of was. but i picked raspberries and took loads of pictures, and chilled with madre et ethan. & and there were like hot guys too. and they were like looking at me constantly, which i find messed. :S
but whatevs. did all the things you do at a farm, run around wild, go for a hayride, pet animals. 'twas fun.
we got back, and i was like super tired. we had dinner, madre went out to 'sauga with her frann, and then it started pooring. lmfao. and ALL the windows were open, so i was running around the house like a maniac trying to close all of them. =\
i love the rain though <3
madre came home, and then whatevs. i started reading DEATHLY HALLOWS . . again. and was texting althea. and that was basically my night.

theeeen today, OMG SUCH FUN TIMES. ahh.
so i woke up at like 9:30 to Mambo No 5. ahahah.
so i basically woke up laughing and singing along.
and then i turned it off and fell back asleep for SEVEN whole minutes,
because madre came in and woke me up. because it was time to get ready. fml.
whatevs. i got ready and shiz, then we had to go.
had an interesting car ride, but no way am i saying it heeere. D:
anyways, we got there and it was SPECTACULAR.
except you guys don't know where "there" is. . lmfaolmfao. there = MOTHERFACKING CASALOMA <3333333333333
anyways, we got there. and it was amazing.
i love that place with all my heart. ahh.
and as soon as we step into the castle, idk why but everyone just kept staring at me, or something in my direction . . which was a wall. lmfao.
i had an amazing time there, took LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS of pictures, its SO beautiful there.
OOH OOHH ! there was this hot, HOT guy. but i think he had a girlfriend. D:
and i think he was a tourist. fml fml. i hate tourist attractions because people never think you are from the city it's in. D:
anyways, me and this hot, HOT guy kept running into eachother ALL over the castle. it was CREEPY. but whatever. i liked it. xD
lmfaolmfao, and crystal is convinced that he seduced me, WHICH HE DID. mhmm. it was safe. . ish.
i didn't even know his name.
they only flaws of this daaay were :
- it rained at lunch.
- some guy came close to talking to me, but fucking WALKED away, like his mouth was open to deliver SOME kind of dialogue, and then just walks away, but continues to look at me. like wtf? and he was hot.
- there were wedding pictures being taken @ casaloma, and the bride looked like a drag queen, and i'm pretty sure i'm in one of the videos. woot. (not a flaw xD)
- i slammed my finger into a garbage can, hurt like a BITCH.

anyways, i went to the tallest point in the castle, and lmfao, ethan was crying while climbing the stairs. HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY. ahahahaha.
uhh, there were a lot of hot guys.
casaloma is such fun times. and there is a gazebo place there, and i was just standing around, and FIVE different families asked me to take their pictures.
AND THIS ONE FAMILY HAD AUSTRALIAN ACCENTS. ohmyfack.
i died. <3

anyways, other things that happened todaay,
i read wide awake updates <3 Darkward is love. Bella's a whore. Carmen is the shit.

uhh, yeaa.
me thinks this is it. so yeaa.
sorry for the vile language, but i . . yea i have no excuse. its just me.
i think this summer has been more revolved around family than anything else like friends and shit.
and i've become waay more observant too. which kind of sucks. but oh well.
i can't WAIT to get back to school, honestly.

next week, cousin is coming from British Columbia and Christine is coming from Calgary.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! can't wait.

anyways going to go,
peace out.

-nickel-

When I Say Jump, You Say How High ( 8 )

thanks for lying to me asshole.
real fucking great.

i've got to face the truth sometime,

nothing's ever going to be the same again,

no one is going to be happy like they used to,

smiles will never be the same.

people are always going to be yelled at,

or doing random things just to keep their mind busy,

away from what's real.

but we've all go to face the truth sometime,

but for now we can live in our fantasy world.

- Nicole Teixeira

hi,

i haven't been on the internet in a while (not like anyone gives a shit)

and its been great. i've gotten to read and live in my own fantasy world, where i can just ignore everything that is going on. I like reading, i like feeling what the characters are feeling, being in their world, thinking their thoughts, and my own. Well that's what a book is supposed to do when you read it. It makes it so much more intriguing.

i've been down lately,

no one cares about me anymore, and its like i've been shed from existence.

no one notices me, i get the occasional 'hi' but like that does anything.

i haven't spoken to anyone, rarely, since school ended, that's what i hate about the end of the school year, everyone just stops talking, its like we're obligated to talk, and once we have that freedom, everything just falls apart. I haven't seen anyone in such a long time. I don't even know anymore. My best friend has been Kris for the past week or so, nothing bad about it, he's funny and fun, but he's my brother's 'friend' ... not mine.

I can't trust anyone anymore either, except for like 3 people, but still i'm not so sure, even out of those 3 people i only trust one the most. I've also got more annoyed with people too, which kind of hard since i haven't seen or heard from anyone, but still, they're getting more annoying, i've done stuff like ignoring them, but it's not working. whatever. that's what second chances are for, right?

My dreams are getting annoying too, I know what they are telling me to do, and what I want, because after all, a dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast asleep, but i don't think i can do what my heart wants me to do, i keep thinking and thinking, but i just can't. i made a mistake. a terrible one. and now its haunting me, because i know i made the wrong choice.

I need someone to talk to, someone who will respond. A blog isn't good enough for this, but I can't talk to anyone, maybe I can, but it has to be someone i feel comfortable with, someone i trust.

well, enough dwelling on all the bad things in my life.

-- i saw harry potter 6 on Wednesday, July 15, 2009 . it was amazing, ending was slow and they left out a lot, but it was amazing. so i give in 4.7/10

-- sometime this summer, 2 weeks ago, i saw transformers 2 for the 4th time, i think i failed to mention that a while ago.

-- i'm almost done my book. :D

-- i went to toronto this past weekend, i didn't do anything special, go to see meu pai. <3> and family. so that was fun. then went to go see HP6 again.

i think thats all the good things. yeaap, not a lot, but oh well, "in the end it doesn't even matter".

k well i guess i'm going to go,

this weekend is going to be an epic fail, because promises that were made two months ago, are now broken. yay.

yeaaa,

-- nicole .

A Whole New World

A Whole New World

I can show you the world

Shining, shimmering, splendid

Tell me princess, now when did you last
Let your heart decide

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
or where to go
Or say where only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place i never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world
With you

Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, free-wheeling
Through an endless diamond sky
A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red letter
I'll chase them everywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this
Whole new world with you
A whole new world
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

(LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL)

Stop & Stare ( 8 )

I don't want this anymore,
I'm a failure, no my life is.
Why do parents always get to make your choice for you when you're younger?
If they didn't, then I wouldn't be like this right now.
Crying my eyes out.
I just wish everything would come naturally instead of having to memorize it,
I wish I had grown up culturally.
Embracing it, now hiding it away,
But my parents had to pick whats best for me, please
How do they know what I want?

='(