fun fun fun fun FUN week so far, and hey! its only TUESDAY.

okay, so if you haven't noticed, summer is like FLYING by, and the weather has been way too shitty to do anything, but stay indoors. fack.
so like i've been bored out of my frickin mind.
so my madre had this week off of work. WOOOT.
yea, so we've been going place like 24/7.
so this weekend i went to toronto to go to my aunt's which is usually boring, but it was fun times, i got to watch movies, and like eat regular food. lmfao.
and we slept over there, so on sunday, we headed back home, and it was POORING. it was totally fun to drive in. haha.
but sunday we also had to cleanse the house, fml. whatevs. :P
so so yesterday, 'twas monday, and we went to this farm, in Halton Hills . i thought it was going to be boring, and HEY! it kind of was. but i picked raspberries and took loads of pictures, and chilled with madre et ethan. & and there were like hot guys too. and they were like looking at me constantly, which i find messed. :S
but whatevs. did all the things you do at a farm, run around wild, go for a hayride, pet animals. 'twas fun.
we got back, and i was like super tired. we had dinner, madre went out to 'sauga with her frann, and then it started pooring. lmfao. and ALL the windows were open, so i was running around the house like a maniac trying to close all of them. =\
i love the rain though <3
madre came home, and then whatevs. i started reading DEATHLY HALLOWS . . again. and was texting althea. and that was basically my night.

theeeen today, OMG SUCH FUN TIMES. ahh.
so i woke up at like 9:30 to Mambo No 5. ahahah.
so i basically woke up laughing and singing along.
and then i turned it off and fell back asleep for SEVEN whole minutes,
because madre came in and woke me up. because it was time to get ready. fml.
whatevs. i got ready and shiz, then we had to go.
had an interesting car ride, but no way am i saying it heeere. D:
anyways, we got there and it was SPECTACULAR.
except you guys don't know where "there" is. . lmfaolmfao. there = MOTHERFACKING CASALOMA <3333333333333
anyways, we got there. and it was amazing.
i love that place with all my heart. ahh.
and as soon as we step into the castle, idk why but everyone just kept staring at me, or something in my direction . . which was a wall. lmfao.
i had an amazing time there, took LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS of pictures, its SO beautiful there.
OOH OOHH ! there was this hot, HOT guy. but i think he had a girlfriend. D:
and i think he was a tourist. fml fml. i hate tourist attractions because people never think you are from the city it's in. D:
anyways, me and this hot, HOT guy kept running into eachother ALL over the castle. it was CREEPY. but whatever. i liked it. xD
lmfaolmfao, and crystal is convinced that he seduced me, WHICH HE DID. mhmm. it was safe. . ish.
i didn't even know his name.
they only flaws of this daaay were :
- it rained at lunch.
- some guy came close to talking to me, but fucking WALKED away, like his mouth was open to deliver SOME kind of dialogue, and then just walks away, but continues to look at me. like wtf? and he was hot.
- there were wedding pictures being taken @ casaloma, and the bride looked like a drag queen, and i'm pretty sure i'm in one of the videos. woot. (not a flaw xD)
- i slammed my finger into a garbage can, hurt like a BITCH.

anyways, i went to the tallest point in the castle, and lmfao, ethan was crying while climbing the stairs. HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY. ahahahaha.
uhh, there were a lot of hot guys.
casaloma is such fun times. and there is a gazebo place there, and i was just standing around, and FIVE different families asked me to take their pictures.
AND THIS ONE FAMILY HAD AUSTRALIAN ACCENTS. ohmyfack.
i died. <3

anyways, other things that happened todaay,
i read wide awake updates <3 Darkward is love. Bella's a whore. Carmen is the shit.

uhh, yeaa.
me thinks this is it. so yeaa.
sorry for the vile language, but i . . yea i have no excuse. its just me.
i think this summer has been more revolved around family than anything else like friends and shit.
and i've become waay more observant too. which kind of sucks. but oh well.
i can't WAIT to get back to school, honestly.

next week, cousin is coming from British Columbia and Christine is coming from Calgary.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! can't wait.

anyways going to go,
peace out.

-nickel-

When I Say Jump, You Say How High ( 8 )

thanks for lying to me asshole.
real fucking great.

i've got to face the truth sometime,

nothing's ever going to be the same again,

no one is going to be happy like they used to,

smiles will never be the same.

people are always going to be yelled at,

or doing random things just to keep their mind busy,

away from what's real.

but we've all go to face the truth sometime,

but for now we can live in our fantasy world.

- Nicole Teixeira

hi,

i haven't been on the internet in a while (not like anyone gives a shit)

and its been great. i've gotten to read and live in my own fantasy world, where i can just ignore everything that is going on. I like reading, i like feeling what the characters are feeling, being in their world, thinking their thoughts, and my own. Well that's what a book is supposed to do when you read it. It makes it so much more intriguing.

i've been down lately,

no one cares about me anymore, and its like i've been shed from existence.

no one notices me, i get the occasional 'hi' but like that does anything.

i haven't spoken to anyone, rarely, since school ended, that's what i hate about the end of the school year, everyone just stops talking, its like we're obligated to talk, and once we have that freedom, everything just falls apart. I haven't seen anyone in such a long time. I don't even know anymore. My best friend has been Kris for the past week or so, nothing bad about it, he's funny and fun, but he's my brother's 'friend' ... not mine.

I can't trust anyone anymore either, except for like 3 people, but still i'm not so sure, even out of those 3 people i only trust one the most. I've also got more annoyed with people too, which kind of hard since i haven't seen or heard from anyone, but still, they're getting more annoying, i've done stuff like ignoring them, but it's not working. whatever. that's what second chances are for, right?

My dreams are getting annoying too, I know what they are telling me to do, and what I want, because after all, a dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast asleep, but i don't think i can do what my heart wants me to do, i keep thinking and thinking, but i just can't. i made a mistake. a terrible one. and now its haunting me, because i know i made the wrong choice.

I need someone to talk to, someone who will respond. A blog isn't good enough for this, but I can't talk to anyone, maybe I can, but it has to be someone i feel comfortable with, someone i trust.

well, enough dwelling on all the bad things in my life.

-- i saw harry potter 6 on Wednesday, July 15, 2009 . it was amazing, ending was slow and they left out a lot, but it was amazing. so i give in 4.7/10

-- sometime this summer, 2 weeks ago, i saw transformers 2 for the 4th time, i think i failed to mention that a while ago.

-- i'm almost done my book. :D

-- i went to toronto this past weekend, i didn't do anything special, go to see meu pai. <3> and family. so that was fun. then went to go see HP6 again.

i think thats all the good things. yeaap, not a lot, but oh well, "in the end it doesn't even matter".

k well i guess i'm going to go,

this weekend is going to be an epic fail, because promises that were made two months ago, are now broken. yay.

yeaaa,

-- nicole .

A Whole New World

A Whole New World

I can show you the world

Shining, shimmering, splendid

Tell me princess, now when did you last
Let your heart decide

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
or where to go
Or say where only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place i never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world
With you

Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, free-wheeling
Through an endless diamond sky
A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red letter
I'll chase them everywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this
Whole new world with you
A whole new world
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

(LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL)

Stop & Stare ( 8 )

I don't want this anymore,
I'm a failure, no my life is.
Why do parents always get to make your choice for you when you're younger?
If they didn't, then I wouldn't be like this right now.
Crying my eyes out.
I just wish everything would come naturally instead of having to memorize it,
I wish I had grown up culturally.
Embracing it, now hiding it away,
But my parents had to pick whats best for me, please
How do they know what I want?

='(

Keep Me In Your Memory, Leave Out All The Rest ( 8 )

All I want to do is be remembered.
Not famous, just remembered by the ones who truly loved and cared for me.

You've Got Me Smiling In My Sleep (L)

ONE OF DEMI'S SONGS GOT LEAKED. ahh! Catch Me <3>i'm going to buy her CD on July 21st ! woot! woot!

cant wait.

"there's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like home"

i love the wizard of oz, haven't seen it in a million years, but honestly its one of my favourite movies.

i want to have a disney marathon, like badly, i need classic disney asap.

my VCR is broken though, i cried. :(

i don't want a guitar anymore, so i won't be nagging about that.

but i still want a MacBook

i've also decided to make up my mind about a few things. .

i don't know how they'll turn out, but oh well. risks are risks. (=

i think my mom is going to sign me up for Portuguese lessons. :D :D

so happy.

i'm going to take french next year too, i've always liked it, and don't really want to drop it. :)

my mom also said that she wants me to become an astronomer(dream job), and to see what courses you need to be one. .

honestly, i haven't been that happy in so looooooooong.

i just wanted to scream, because she's encouraging me to do what i want. :D

i'm kind of a dick, but i'd rather not say why.

i want to go to wonderland soooo badly, but i want like a seasons pass.

i'm going to miss crystal preeti mascarenhas, as she departs to florida in like 3 days? 2 days? whatever, i'm going to miss her face. a lot. my phone will definitely miss having her name pop up every like 2 seconds. xD

i'd give anything thing to be in Europe now, like i have family there(Portugal), but i don't think they know me, but my grandparents own a house there, i think. . and i want to go soooooo badly.

and if i get to take Portuguese lessons, well that would be AMAZING.

i mean i tried learning by podcast, it didn't really work.

i tried spanish too, but idk, so i gave up podcasts.

i came up with a realization of some sort, wanna hear it, it's sorta sad, oh well :

I think having someone leave you is worse than having someone taken away from you (like dying, or moved) because toy know the person leaving you doesn't care about you anymore, and just wants to get away, their love and everything is gone, where the person being taken away for whatever reason, still loves / loved you, and had no other choice to stay.

well that was it, it means a lot to ME, i don't really care if it means anything to you, its my brain, i think about stuff that i want to think about, and some stuff just comes up randomly

i watched 10 things i hate about you there other day, CUTEST movie ever, honestly. i was literally smiling / crying at the end.

DID YOU KNOW THAT I'M GOING TO GO SEE HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE IN 18 HOURS?? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I JUST FINISHED READING THE BOOK FOR THE SECOND TIME AND MY MIND IS FRESH ON WHAT HAPPENED, SO NOW I'M READY TO SEE IT!!!!!!!!

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, i'm SO happy about it. (:

k now i'm bored,

and i'm going to go to sleep

goodnight blog. (:

List Of Things I Want To Do

this might be a little long.

My List of Things That I Want To Do Before I Die

~ witness a miracle

~ be in two places at once

~ travel the world.

~ get married

~ pay it forward

~ make someone's life better

~ inspire someone

~ move away from North America for a while

~ live in California

~ live in NYC

~ live somewhere in Europe

~ keep a friendship for more than 5 years

~ play a full song on the piano

~ write a successful, good song

~ be in a movie

~ write a book

~ become a photographer

~ go to Disneyland

~ go to Disneyworld again.

~ go on the Sheikra

~ go on the King Da Ka

~ go to Disneyland

~ go to all the Six Flags across America

~ get accepted by a university

~ win a contest

~ go to a concert

~ visit a movie set

~ touch a penguin

~ swim with the dolphins

~ see the sharks

~ witness an eclipse

~ see / go to Mount Everest

~ drive down a road until it ends to see where it leads me

~ travel the 401 to its end.

~ see / touch a panda bear

~ see a kangaroo

~ touch a koala bear

~ go to Australia

~ learn another language

~ surf in Hawaii

~ walk through the rainforest

~ go to India

~ sell or hand down my Barbie collection .

~ buy my own car

~ re-decorate my room

~ learn how to drive

~ get a job

~ get my dream job

~ learn how to play the guitar

~ live in an apartment

~ go on a cruise

~ sail the seven seas

~ go to Alaska

~ get a dog

~ see the seven natural wonders of the world

~ see the seven man made wonders of the world

~ see all the wonders of the world

~ learn to be myself

~ to live

je suis très très ennuyé .

another day in boring old milton.
another day of sitting around twittering and facebooking.
another day of helping my mom watch stupid daycare kids.
another day of going to the park at 2:15 pm.
another day of complaining that i'm bored.
another day of texting.
another day of starting a whole new book.
another day of missing people.
another day of no hangouts.
another day of being a loner.
another day of getting yelled at.
another day wasted.

i'm sick and tired of being in milton, and its only like July 10th. . i mean summer is supposed to be fun, but i'm friggen bored out of my mind.

whatevs. i guess i'll just stay this way for the next TWO months.

yup.

. . .

there's never a good day in the teixeira / alli residence.

I can't think of a song.

Haaaaai,
So I've gotten to the point of my summer where I'm so bored and tired of reading books,
That I can actually predict the plot.. 20 chapters before the actual characters do,
And I'm actually getting really mad at the characters.
Because you know it's normal to get mad at fictional fucking characters.
I'm losing my head, this summer's a bore, I need a job or to go somewhere, or do something.
rant, done.. for right now.

New Moon.

"Before you, my life was like a moonless night. very dark, but there were stars- points of light and reason... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddently everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. when you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everythign went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

'Cause It's All In My Head ( 8 )

Blaaaaaaah.
I'm bored x10383829.
Do people even use blogger anymore?
lmao.

uhh? I don't even know why I'm writing this.

yesterday was epic, naaaaat. I went to go see Transformers 2 for the third time,
It's still amazing.
I want three new cars, yup yup.
CARGASMS. look it up.

I wrote something yesterday, I think it was a story, but it was a crappy story so I threw it out, okay well it wasn't written down on paper,
It was on my iPod so if you want to get all technical I deleted it.

It's been raining non stop, I like rain, like THUNDERSTORMS, but not this rain, because it pours for like 10 minutes
And stops and the sun shines and half an hour later, it pours again.
Messed up.

Meeh, I'm bored and this is pointless.

Devil childs team won their soccer game todaaaay, WOOOOO.
lmfao.

I'm going.
byeeee.