well i just lost everyone.

effin betch, you always pissed me off, and now you just decide that you're not going to talk to me, k cool, whatever. all you did was put drama in my life anyways.

i want to know what happens when you die.

i haven't spoken to you since monday, it's literally killing me.

boo.

fackin depressing times. kind of.
supposed to take my math test today but there was some OYAP presentation so i get to take it tomorrow (Y) OMG. i'm failing math.. D: so scared. + i have nooooo idea what i want to do with my life and that presentation made me think about stuff and i'm just scared, because i don't even know what i'm interested in. .

i have problems.

faaaaaaailed my history test, well not failed but BARELY passed, like i'm doing so bad this semester its sooooo hard. :'( and then we have this stupid essay that we have to do, and i'm doing the holocaust.(maybe? or D-Day?) FUCK MAN. IT'S MAKING ME THINK. like what Hitler did to all those Jews, and i'm only 40 pages into the book. seriously, i will never crack another racist joke in my LIFE. sooo bad. i almost cried, so i took a break and thats why i'm writing this. but i hope i do so well on this essay because i'm going to fail, and i do NOT want to take history again, i'd die.

drama is a fail too. likeee, i was supposed to do my monologue friday (i think) and then i got it pushed to monday, but i didn't have it memorized so i got it pushed to today, and i still don't have it memorized, so i have to go tomorrow. its not like i'm procrastinating i'm trying my hardest but every time i think of going in front of everyone i just completely blank out and have to start all over again. but i guess i'll go tomorrow and get it over with. oh and we started this new thing in drama and we needed to have partners, and guess who the only one without a partner is? me. fml.

k well i hate how people are such hypocrites too. you say you hate something, but at the same time you're doing the EXACT same thing, or you do it after you say it. i mean if people want to do something then let them fucking do it, it's not your life so stop judging. i mean what if they aren't following everyone else, and they're just bored one day and decide to play this game. or maybe they like what they're doing, just leave them alone to do whatever they want and you get on with your life, like i said stop judging and wasting your time and just get on with your life.

oh and i don't know if i have friends anymore so yeah, because i'm being completely ignored all the time and just because you don't see me all the time doesn't mean you can't tell me stuff, i mean i'm still the same person you used to talk to, so hopefully i transfer to another school by the end of this year because it'll be better than this fucking hellhole where everyone hates me and i have no friends..

with that said i'm going to finish reading my holocaust book.
-nicole.

ps. i want to go to portugal march break.

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SAW NEWWWWWWWWWW MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON. HOLY SHIT. FUCKING EPIC. SO MUCH BETTER THAN TWILIGHT . GAAAAAAH, TAYLOR LAUTNER IS THE BEST JACOB EVER. ROBERT PATTINSON WAS PRETTY AWESOME TOO (i'll regret saying that) BUT OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. TEAM LAUTNER FTW <3

x

just because i'm away for two weeks does not mean you have to exclude me from everything you guys do.

(L)

People I don't know put the biggest smiles on my face.

o.O

I love having no social life, it makes life more .. free.

* defying gravity.

hello, awesome new hot guy in my dream. i hope to see you more.
and criss angel and justin hartley.

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sick of being ..sick.

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If I have swine flu, I'm going to cut someone's balls off.
kbai.

100th Post

i stole this off of Althea, who stole this off of her friend:


Lollipops turn into cigarettes.
The innocent ones turn into sluts.
Homework goes in the trash.
Mobile phones are being used in class.

Detention becomes suspension.
Soda becomes vodka.
Bikes become cars.
Kisses turn into sex.

Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?
When protection meant wearing a helmet?
When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties?
Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and your mom was your hero.
Your worst enemies were your siblings.

Race issues were about who ran the fastest.
War was only a card game.

And the only drug you knew was cough medicine.

When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut.
The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees,
and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?

And we couldn’t wait to grow up.

kso a whole month has gone by since i've written a blog. and i don't really know what to write about. October.
Thanksgiving was a fun time, spent it with the family : Madre, Fenny, Ethan, Aunt Monica, etc.
Brother's Birthday: fun time, went out to eat at Milestones. :)
Madre's Birthday: GREAT time, went out for breakfast, dad came over, watched Smallville..awesome :)
hmm.. school's been on and off though... getting annoyed at some people, i want to change schools. D: oh and my marks are plummeting.
zomg, i've been living in the past so much this month, like i've just trying to remember my childhood, and all over the place it keeps coming up and i miss it. i miss Mississauga too, i had the perfect life there, everything was fine, and i miss it fucking Milton had to fuck everything up. whatevs.
Halloween: amazing time. althea's house, rockband(1,2,Beatles) and trick or treating as Harry Potter squared :) we never had an epic duel though.
oh and i went to the school football games, we won both times. Go Royals :)

hmmm.. November.
well so far, nothing big has happened.
EXCEPT I WENT TO STRATFORD AND IT WAS THE BEST TIME EVER.
likee you don't even know.
first i got to school, and i had to sit through math but i had none of my supplies because i thought we were leaving first thing, but no. so yaaah.
second period we leave and sit through an hour and a half drive hahah fun times with Caroline, Paige, Rikki, and Rebecca.
we get there and get off the bus and this is what happened. they tell us that we have 2 hours to eat lunch and walk around and stuff, we all thought it was just in the main building but noooo. THEY LET US WALK AROUND THE WHOLE TOWN. and the teachers didn't even come with us. so we basically had 2 hours of free time to explore this town and get lunch, so we went to A&W for like an hour and went back and chilled at this building and mind you, it was FREEZING, it even started hailing D:
but yah, so it was like 1:30 when we all got our tickets for West Side Story and started to take our seats and the play started and it was probably the most amazing thing ever. but i've never been to play before so i might not be able to compare but it was awesome, like the people acted/danced/sang so well.i was amazed. so after that 2-3 hours we went back on the bus AND OMG WE PASSED THROUGH THIS PLACE CALLED SHAKESPEARE. HIGHLIGHT OF MY LIFE. and it was so awesome, like i can't even describe it. XD
we were driving to mil-town and likee it was getting so dark, haha and i was scared and we saw the moon and holy crap it was HUGE and it was so bright it was pretty.
but yeaaah, we got to the school and i walked home and began writing this and thats basically it.

nts:
-i need to boost up my marks
-start trying, stop procrastinating
-appreciate what i have
-get a job
-play my guitar
-think of a halloween costume
-stop getting mad at like everyone
-stop asking for things
-not use the internet for 5-7 days. <-- challenge? yes. but i want to try.

and this concludes my 100th post. i also want to thank everyone who has been there for me ever since i started this thing, even if you aren't in my life now, i still respect you and i want to make things right.

-Nicole.

i like how i said i would barely be posting

i don't like when people say x-mas.
i also don't like secrets.
or when some people talk about stuff right in front of you and it makes you curious and then you ask what they're talking about and they say "oh,nothing" LIKE GET A FUCKING LIFE.
bye.

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left out.

"they're like pancakes with syrup traps!"
i basically want this guy to be my best friend for, like, EVER.

:/

I made a tumblr so this might not be used as often because tumblr is so much more awesome.
yayz.
bai.

THE MAGIC AMULET, CHARLIE! *SPARKLE SPARKLE*
YAY DARKNESS!
ring ring! hello? ring ring! hello? ...YOU HAVE A BAD CONNECTION.
CHARLIE YOU'RE THE BANANA KING.
oh, there's my kidney.

random

DYING OF BOREDOM! so i decided to blog...
i'm still bored.
fack. halp?

"what would you do if you were invisible?"
"oh, i'd kick wiener dogs"
"i'd use it to avoid ever having to look at myself in the mirror"
"i was going to say...i would use it to fake my own death and watch people cry at the funeral"

DEFF KNOW WHAT I'M DOING.
OFF TO PIGFARTS I GO.

mission: go to a boarding school in england. because my life basically sucks. i'm halfway there.

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Katherine Solomon bored me to tears.