well i just lost everyone.

effin betch, you always pissed me off, and now you just decide that you're not going to talk to me, k cool, whatever. all you did was put drama in my life anyways.

i want to know what happens when you die.

i haven't spoken to you since monday, it's literally killing me.

boo.

fackin depressing times. kind of.
supposed to take my math test today but there was some OYAP presentation so i get to take it tomorrow (Y) OMG. i'm failing math.. D: so scared. + i have nooooo idea what i want to do with my life and that presentation made me think about stuff and i'm just scared, because i don't even know what i'm interested in. .

i have problems.

faaaaaaailed my history test, well not failed but BARELY passed, like i'm doing so bad this semester its sooooo hard. :'( and then we have this stupid essay that we have to do, and i'm doing the holocaust.(maybe? or D-Day?) FUCK MAN. IT'S MAKING ME THINK. like what Hitler did to all those Jews, and i'm only 40 pages into the book. seriously, i will never crack another racist joke in my LIFE. sooo bad. i almost cried, so i took a break and thats why i'm writing this. but i hope i do so well on this essay because i'm going to fail, and i do NOT want to take history again, i'd die.

drama is a fail too. likeee, i was supposed to do my monologue friday (i think) and then i got it pushed to monday, but i didn't have it memorized so i got it pushed to today, and i still don't have it memorized, so i have to go tomorrow. its not like i'm procrastinating i'm trying my hardest but every time i think of going in front of everyone i just completely blank out and have to start all over again. but i guess i'll go tomorrow and get it over with. oh and we started this new thing in drama and we needed to have partners, and guess who the only one without a partner is? me. fml.

k well i hate how people are such hypocrites too. you say you hate something, but at the same time you're doing the EXACT same thing, or you do it after you say it. i mean if people want to do something then let them fucking do it, it's not your life so stop judging. i mean what if they aren't following everyone else, and they're just bored one day and decide to play this game. or maybe they like what they're doing, just leave them alone to do whatever they want and you get on with your life, like i said stop judging and wasting your time and just get on with your life.

oh and i don't know if i have friends anymore so yeah, because i'm being completely ignored all the time and just because you don't see me all the time doesn't mean you can't tell me stuff, i mean i'm still the same person you used to talk to, so hopefully i transfer to another school by the end of this year because it'll be better than this fucking hellhole where everyone hates me and i have no friends..

with that said i'm going to finish reading my holocaust book.
-nicole.

ps. i want to go to portugal march break.

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SAW NEWWWWWWWWWW MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON. HOLY SHIT. FUCKING EPIC. SO MUCH BETTER THAN TWILIGHT . GAAAAAAH, TAYLOR LAUTNER IS THE BEST JACOB EVER. ROBERT PATTINSON WAS PRETTY AWESOME TOO (i'll regret saying that) BUT OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. TEAM LAUTNER FTW <3

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just because i'm away for two weeks does not mean you have to exclude me from everything you guys do.

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People I don't know put the biggest smiles on my face.